Adam says he has never blamed himself. The Afghan government is unable and some say unwilling to tackle the problem. Although there clearly are women who molest children, a large proportion do so in conjunction youg a male offender.
He's certain that he will never offend, insisting over and again that if he ever was tempted, his anti-contact online friends would always push him back "on to the right path". Prof Derek Perkins is olx consultant forensic psychologist and has set up treatment programmes for sexual offenders. I spent months trying to find a bacha who was willing to talk about his experience. When we leave the party at two in the morning a teenage boy is still dancing and offering drugs to the men around him.
I'd never do that. And eventually, she asked her son if he liked children?
But Adam wasn't yet at a point where he thought of himself as a paedophile. By the time Adam got to 17, he'd spent four years trying to ignore his feelings about children. He says the main barrier is that he "needs to get better at talking to girls".
When he describes this period, his words come out in a rush. She tells me she only has half a kilo of rice and a few onions for dinner. Some of them keep several bachas boys and use them as status symbols - a display of their riches.
He admits to having "crushes" on young boys but he says he works hard to distract himself. There do exist a small of female sex offenders, but it is unknown how many of them might be genuine paedophiles.
When we first met, I asked him to show me photo ID kld prove his real name and age. He explains that he gets "so upset" when he sees stories about child abuse on the news: "I'm doing this so that some people will stop that.
Adam spent the next few years doing what almost every teenager does - trying to fit in. He repeats it as he explains that he had always wanted to have a wife and children one day. He says he would kill himself before hurting.
Adam wishes he was attracted to adults but he just isn't. But I went to a party late at night in the old quarter of Kabul, less than a mile from the government's headquarters.
It also operates the Get Support website. All callers can stay anonymous.
Like Adam, he went through a period when he couldn't obys his mind "justifying things that weren't really justifiable". He says he felt almost high the first time.
He wanted to believe them. Slight and fresh-faced.
Yiung it points out that survivors need support too. Looking at him tell this story, you realise how slim and slight he is. Clearly uncomfortable talking about this period in his life, he sits still, his fingers rubbing together nervously. He says the first time he told anyone, it started off almost as a joke. They are facing a growing insurgent movement.
One described himself as "a ticking time bomb". Or boys. His friends suddenly started talking about girls and he just wasn't interested.
The Independent Human Rights Commission in Kabul is one of the few organisations that has attempted to address the bachabaze practice. Zabi is not especially wealthy or powerful, yet he has three bachas. He was clearly nervous. After a slight hesitation, he replies that there is goung "some slight attraction" but that it is drowned out by his emotional chat with nearby.
Did he like women? On the surface, it's hard to argue with his self-description. But he is a paedophile.